I couldn't see it
It just caught me by surprise
Though eventually it would come to be
A blessing in disguise
Didn't believe it
The pain behind your eyes
It's difficult to carry on
When someone you love dies
I'd never forget you
Didn't want to cut you off
I'm not used to dealing with all the grief that comes with loss
It made me so angry
Yeah it drove me fucking mad
Like you didn't even care about the memories that we had
Now I know I'm not on my own
And I
I wonder if you're having fun up there
I hope you're doing better now
I hope you've been repaired
And I
I hope you're up there looking down on me
And I hope I make you happy and proud
And I didn't let you down
I begged you to help me
I asked you not to let me drown
In all the thoughts up in my head
The ones that kept me anchored down
Then I tried to join you
Couldn't deal with all this pain
I hope you're sitting tight cause I'll be seeing you again
Now I know I'm not on my own
And I
I wonder if you're having fun up there
I hope you're doing better now
I hope you've been repaired
And I
I hope you're up there looking down on me
And I hope I make you happy and proud
And I didn't let you down
