Violent (#Angermanagement)

Ohhh, why didn't you kill me too?!! Go on shoot! I don't want to live any more I know That's the idea The rest of your boyfriend is still around & I hope you two live a long time & Then maybe you'll get to feel what I feel Death is too easy for you bitch I want you to suffer It's the pain It keeps me going Tears me down all at once Swear you let the next nigga tell I do this shit just for fun They don't know It's not for show Deep rooted wounds lead my reactions Everyday a different struggle Tryna filter my passion I get violent No, I cannot always hide it My mind is playing scenarios I don't think I can fight it The fire inside my heart In this moment feeling ignited I gotta release this energy I ain't gonna deny it It's a never ending saga I feel 4 seasons a day In my mind Envision leaving like why the fuck should I stay Force of nature Dangerous habits Suicidal ideation My creator playing games Think I need an intervention Gaining traction Walk away Take a breather til it's better Better to maintain control Than walking round half human terror Don't be like that (Don't be like that, don't be like that) I get violent No, I cannot always hide it My mind is playing scenarios I don't think I can fight it The fire inside my heart In this moment feeling ignited I gotta release this energy I ain't gonna deny it I got this anger this rage I cannot keep it contained My body starting to shake I'm feeling heat in my face I'm seeing red it's a haze Fire my soul it's ablaze Have I always been this way? And no I am not ok... If they say violence is not the answer Then why does it feel so good? The pain to suppress this anger I feel so misunderstood My eyes they tell a story of emotions unheard My soul release the glory I hope no one gets hurt...