Wanna Feel Alright

I feel the world watching, counting my rainy days Running on empty, but still hitting the gas, I never hesitate Doing ninety-five on the interstate Interstellar travel whenever I meditate I see the sky falling, it's time to celebrate Blame God, but He can't respond if I never pray The young renegade, I'm tryna be great But this routine to get me there got me feeling a way I'm ripping the gauze, I need a minute to pause, feel like a fraud Breaking the barrier, these aren't my typical walls Yeah, I'm a monster wrapping you in my jaws Bite down, but somehow it's me always taking the fall I'm looking for God like I've been feeling withdrawals Staring at my adolescence and noticing I've been robbed Reciting vows and covering my facade I took a bow, I'm waiting for the applause I just wanna smile, I just wanna vibe I don't wanna come down when I'm feeling high I've been feeling restless, I can't even lie Wanna feel okay, wanna feel alright I don't wanna get rich, but I might try Wanna be the greatest, know I got the drive I just want an exit, not from this life Just the way I'm living, man, I wanna feel alright Wanna feel alright Tried taking the time to rewind, tried faking a smile to get by Drove a stake into my pride Tried talking to God, He might've forgot to reply Or maybe He laid it out and I've been ignoring the signs Maybe what I need is right in front of my eyes Or it could be overseas, but I've been caught in the tide And I'm sinking at night, I'm not drinking, I'm fine Or overthinking my life, I promise I'll be alright Back in '17, this girl told me I'd never make it Hearing it then, I swear that it gave me the most drive I screenshotted and made it my goal to prove her wrong I was so determined to make it just out of spite Then she moved out of state and stumbled in with the wrong crowd Messed around and fell in love with this guy Two years later, he went and smuggled a 9 Took the gun to her stomach, shot her and took her life Now I got mixed feelings, mixed drinks in my fridge chilling She was young and her blood never deserved spilling She was young, immature, and only deserved healing Now if I make it, man, I'ma feel like a villain I don't wanna feel like I'm doing this for the wrong reason And in my brain, there's a small region that says Maybe I'm a saint and I'm just guarding my feelings Or maybe I'm the snake inside the Garden of Eden I just wanna smile, I just wanna vibe I don't wanna come down when I'm feeling high I've been feeling restless, I can't even lie Wanna feel okay, wanna feel alright I don't wanna get rich, but I might try Wanna be the greatest, know I got the drive I just want an exit, not from this life Just the way I'm living, man, I wanna feel alright Wanna feel alright