Toxic

Yeah Yeah I hate you right now, yeah I'm not fucking with you right now But I don't want you to get it confused with I don't want, I don't want to you see you happy I don't want you to be happy I don't want you to be at peace I don't want you to accomplish your goals and your aspirations, I still do It's just that, you just need to do it on the other side Because with you in my life right now, it's too toxic I could tell you what I been through But on these beats cause I got no one to vent to So overloving somebody is what I tend to Cause ain't nobody really caring what you been through Heartbroken but I still gotta function Heart big gotta play it like it's shrunken Without knowing I contribute to the cycle Cause hurt people hurt people then spiral And I resent that it happens so frequently Took it at face value what it seem to be Not a care in the world just what it mean to me Because I let you be you then you cling to me Now you bringing me All these vibes that you can't keep Falling for you but I play it like it ain't deep Then it go left, like it can't be Gotta question myself and now I can't sleep Now I'm up late cause it's unresolved In the manner that you left without one regard I be screaming out to God like why me They see the energy I give then they dry me Let you cry me, a river then drown in it I get a bottle of the liquor then I'm downing it Letting smoke in the air, clear everything All the promises you made bout a wedding ring They was empty, like a nigga really feeling now Heart big but it got you feeling you lil now I was going off emotion Not thinking things through, that's the reason that I really gotta heal now Pain, that's what I felt Wonder if you truly felt how I felt Wish it was us and like nobody else At the end of the day now I'm back by myself (Uh) Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins Know I see it in me but can't stop it Compared to everyone else you got options But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins Know you seeing the truth and still block it Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh) Let me show you real love unconditional Gotta show you that a brother heart pure Careless bout having to be traditional Imma really bring the vibes you gon fall for me for sure Got you doing things you never did Know bout your past know I'm better than Make em beg for attention never let em in Then they get tired, ties sever them Aye, I could just deflect while I'm pointing fingers But the feeling of regret know it still lingers Only ran to my music couldn't run to my momma Childhood trauma make adulthood drama Now I'm back alone gotta stand in the paint Cause nobody really knowing all the things I had to conquer Don't even got a heart, see them fragments in you My ex told me that I had attachment issues In the middle of a fight now I can't shake it Like maybe she was right now I can't make it And I can't take it, so I'm salty now Cause everybody in my life steady walking out Or they stay in it, but they checked out Now I'm giving them the cards to defect now Still leave but they kinda done left already Got me drowning in my feelings cause the depth so heavy I just wanna love can you love me back? Don't wanna quit so quick so I double back Never really letting go is my toxic trait Would I should be doing, make em stop and wait But I'm tryna fix you cause I know you broken Now I'm giving you the tools but you getting me open Out of the everybody I'm the one that you chosen Real conversations, real things that were spoken Times I wrong ain't forgave myself Couldn't find closure but I made myself Had to do it really quick for I hate myself Cause the time gon pass can't escape yourself Building up walls fore I break myself I won't sleep with no regard so I wake myself Gotta look into the mirror with my toxic ways Don't wanna make you feel bad that you gotta stay cause I'm uh Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins Know I see it in me but can't stop it Compared to everyone else you got options But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins Know you seeing the truth and still block it Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh)