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One two one two one two one two One two One two one two one two one two Chavin Yea This one's for you I wonder if things be different if Mommy ain't have the twins and if She could give you attention and Stevie ain't get convicted and Anger ain't fill your lover So she wouldn't kill your child Blue was your favorite color but blood is so deeper now Grief is so lethal now How could we be different and so similar in our ways Mirrors reflecting of us but all I can see is your face Checking if mommy ok Watching her fight for her life Knowing her son was shot And wasn't gone call her tonight I told him I said the mother fucking electricity is keeping you alive It's a machine Pumping air in to you and helping you to relieve air You ga you a Look look look I had, to tell him what you've done You've done this to yourself Two days later he was gone That girl loved you so much Yeah If you thinking a way That girl loved you so much If you thinking a way Know they've taken you away That girl loved you so much yea That girl loved you so much yea Look And life was coming it hit us like all of a sudden No call from a cousin but call from a friend We got a call from the police Emergency it's about one of your kids Momma left out the house Went to the ICU Saw the machines the scene's so irreversible How does she think How do we speak What do we do My brother got shot Don't know who did it but it ain't a cop and Over and over see him in dreams just to get closure Mood is unstable and feeling bipolar With all of this trauma If you love me Pray for my momma Broken in two How do you comfort her sitting on pews Just waiting on moves And she said It's always something today It's always something I think Ima drink it away It's always something Hiding the pills she would take Tryna conceal what we face All is not healed It's a way She had to deal with the pain He had to deal with the pain We had to deal with the pain She had to deal with pain And I say all of this to say That girl loved you so much Yeah If you thinking a way That girl loved you so much If you thinking a way Know they've taken you away That girl loved you so much That girl loved you so much You were her first born Aye man, forget whatever they talking bout We still celebrating, every year For you In Columbus, Atlanta, all over We love you Chavin We miss you Happy birthday Love your lil sis