staring at the ceiling

I'm always doubting myself I overthink until I feel so overwhelmed But you'd never know it Cuz I never show it I ask about that girl who's always texting you And you say that there's no one that you're talking to I want to believe it But I can't believe it cuz I know that She's more than a friend Even though you pretend And now I'm looking through her pictures lying in my bed She's got blue eyes and icy pale skin We don't compare except she loves to sing You say she's not your type Yet she calls each night I kinda feel bad cuz she's caught up in a lie She's probably wondering what you're doing Alone and staring at her ceiling Thinking Maybe he already went to sleep Or maybe he's out driving in his worn out jeep yeah she's Hoping that you'll think of her at night She's wishing that she's all that's on your mind But you'll never know cuz you're with me While she don't have a clue She's staring at the ceiling without you Without you Without you She's staring at the ceiling without you You pull me close while you're stroking my hair Yet I can tell that your mind is elsewhere Then you start asking if I am okay No I don't know what to say Then comes the part when we say our goodbye's You get in your car While I try not to cry Even though you keep on saying you'll be back soon I wish I could believe it but deep down I know that It's not all in my head That girl is not your friend I bet you're doing what you did to me to her instead She probably makes you feel so special Like kiss your neck all slow and gentle I don't wanna be right That's why I call each night Bet she feels bad cuz I'm caught up in a lie And now I'm wondering what you're doing Alone and staring at my ceiling Thinking Maybe he already went to sleep Or maybe he's out driving in his worn out Jeep Yeah I'm hoping that you'll think of me at night I'm wishing that I'm all that's on your mind But you'll never know cuz you're with her while I don't Have a clue I'm staring at the ceiling without you Without you Without you Oh all the empty promises All the impossibilities Was this just a fantasy you painted in my head Was it ever real or was I just misled Remember what I said when we were lying in your bed Told you I was scared of love and you said "hey baby You're enough" Guess I wasn't enough for you Guess I wasn't "someone" to you Guess no matter how hard I really tried to love I think I've finally given up I bet you're thinking Maybe she already went to sleep Or maybe she's out with that guy you long to be Yeah you're hoping that I'll think of you at night You're wishing that you're all that's on my mind But I'm too busy loving all the things that you had failed to see And now you're staring at your ceiling without me