Born In December (Intro)

I was born December the 5th at 5:55 am And the moment I got here I knew everything I knew how I would live I knew what I would stand for And I knew the influence I would have I even knew how I would die But then I forgot I've spent my entire life trying to remember this Relearning who I am Told by my society, my community, media, even some family members That I was supposed to be a certain way And that there's something wrong with me if I didn't fit in with their ideals Along my journey i'd see glimpses of the true me Forever in conflict with my surrounding Recognizing my own reflection in various lovers, friends, family, mentors Various traumas forced me to realign with myself Rebalance myself Stumbling through trials, failures, accomplishments It was predestined that while navigating this confusing wilderness I'd stumble upon a hard absolute truth A first principle if you will That love, true unconditional love What we know as agape Is the foundation of my continued survival Its the key to my thriving in this World full of illusions and spiritually famished individuals Its something that must be found within True unconditional love for myself Compassion, kindness and patience for myself is what I found I learned how to silence my negative self talk I learned to celebrate myself rather than seeking validation from others This love, this Agape, it radiates out from me To others. It's my superpower It wasn't easy to get here, I had to sacrifice a lot I had to allow a part of myself die The part that took in all the lies that other peoples anxieties and narrative of who I am And I've had to exercise this muscle, its new found power Everyday I have to exercise this So I wrote this project for anyone struggling with loving themselves Any one caught in the throngs of heartbreak, addiction Maybe you're caught in a cycle of hurting other people Or hurting yourself Anyone feeling a conflict between their surroundings and the truth they hold within I wrote this for anyone struggling to see their own power Struggling to forgive themselves Not allowing yourself of move on, move up And be in your highest potential As a human being I don't have all the answers Only you have those I just hope as you listen to this That you'll consider the truth that you are deserving Of self love and healing I hope you find the double meaning that I've planted for you So that they may grow likes seed The fruit being courage and self reflection Somebody planted that seed in me When I was just a little girl growing up in Mississippi All I had was a soft voice and a big dream So I'm telling you now in case no one has You can conquer this I am lover, before I am an artist before I am a human I'm a lover first Love makes me weak, makes me cry, makes me cower It makes me brave enough to stand up for myself and others It makes me laugh makes me strong Love is life Love is death So this project is me coming to terms with my own mortality So that I don't leave anything unsaid The recurring theme in my life is love So whoever is listening to this When you are at your lowest Seek beauty If you can't find it in yourself Seek beauty in art, seek beauty in nature Seek beauty in a child's smile Seek the complexities of life Run toward your challenges knowing that there's nothing you can't conquer This world is big And abundance with love, light, beauty These gifts are free to us Even autumn leaves Don't die in vein There's beauty in their pain I hope you find strength in my words My rhymes and know There is a reason you are alive So take a deep breath and And go find your reason