Fountain of Youth

I've been, running in circles tryna get out my mind Missing out on everything and running out of my time The biggest lie I ever said to you was saying "I'm Fine" As would I would cry myself to sleep knowing that you're not mine I lost the feeling that you get from looking up at the sky Because my past has had me feeling like I already died I'm losing faith in us and you no longer asking me "why?" As all the lies are now between us in this bed that we lie, man I've been trapped inside my mind without a key How come no one told me I could leave? Losing out on sleep and seeing things that nobody else sees No one told me I could leave? How come no one told me I was bleeding? Is there even anyone who sees it? Cause every night I'm flighting all my demons off in my sleep With no one that could wake me up from this dream Even when the wind can't stop us Our end is still as close as it could be I threw my hands as far as they could reach Our shattered hope is all my eyes could see And I see it, I see it You give me love, then take it all Hang me up and make me crawl You give me love then take it all away again Here I am searching for the fountain of youth Here I am searching for the fountain of youth Here I am searching for the fountain of youth Here I am searching for the fountain of youth If I could I would gouge out my eyes My fathers turning in the grave that he lies Even these lies can't convince that everything will be fine I often cried as watch my mother sink in that wine And further down the line I didn't help by watching her die She's slowly, killing herself and right in front of my eyes God why, I'm sorry How could the heaven's angels be this cruel How could the heaven's angels be this cruel How could the heaven's angels be this cruel Tools that she drinks to later tie her own noose But what's the use if the pain she feels is haunting me too It's hard to be true These habits have now followed me too And sleeps in my room A hell thats robbing all of my youth How could the heaven's angels be this cruel How could the heaven's angels be this cruel How could you run and never face the truth The truth is you're a mother that has so much to lose And here I am still searching for the fountain of youth, for you, for you Even when the wind can't stop us Our end is still as close as it could be I threw my hands as far as they could reach Our shattered hope is all my eyes could see And I see it, I see it You give me love, then take it all Hang me up and make me crawl You give me love then take it all away again