Brand New Disguise (feat. Tre Haze)

I wasn't gifted a glamorous life As a kid, I was sad all the time Never smiled, I was camera shy As a child I was asked why I cried I really wished I could answer, but I Didn't know why I was damaged inside Despite all the fears in the back of my mind I dried all my tears and I managed to fight Stand in the night, hands in the sky Askin' him why, actually I can't see the light Atrophy my hands as I write, craft, and design Raps that I rhyme. Throw my notepad to the side Hand me the mic, antsy to sign Man, it'd be nice. Family ties damaged by lies Can't be denied, stand for what's right Actions decide if I have to provide a brand new disguise I'm just tryin' to understand what it's like I never really had a chance to decide They wanna kill me but I manage to fight Hide in plain sight with a brand new disguise I know they try to plan my demise Never really had a chance to survive You don't wanna cross paths or collide Hide in plain sight with a brand new disguise Yeah, challenge when I'm dealing with adversity No reason when they question my integrity Jealousy soaking in like its chemically Keep yo head down before you end up like a Kennedy It was the obstacles, that I've overcome Seen things I should've been shielded from Went down the rabbit hole but I'm comin' right back With the shit I should've never done How I know people around all wearing a mask? They got answers, how I know what questions to ask? Stress building up, that's why I carry a flask Hang on ever drop, like it's my last Did it on my own when I was alone Disguised by the evil but it seems like The more I try the more they already know I'm just tryin' to understand what it's like I never really had a chance to decide They wanna kill me but I manage to fight Hide in plain sight with a brand new disguise I know they try to plan my demise Never really had a chance to survive You don't wanna cross paths or collide Hide in plain sight with a brand new disguise I don't want my kids left as orphans Now everything else is less important The doc said my blood pressure's soarin' I've been feelin' like Dexter Morgan I'm not human, I've been fakin' emotion Talkin' a moment just to put it all in place and expose it I'm basically broken. It seems there's no way to control it Patiently waitin' and hopin' just to face my atonement And I pray there's no afterlife I've been depressed over half my life It's not a question of sacrifice I'm asking Christ to turn back the hands of time I can't tell if I'm cursed or I'm blessed I'm hurtin' and stressed, feelin' like a burden to friends Burnin' both ends, I'm just tryin' to do my personal best And earn my respect, 'cause the only thing that's certain is death I'm just tryin' to understand what it's like I never really had a chance to decide They wanna kill me but I manage to fight Hide in plain sight with a brand new disguise I know they try to plan my demise Never really had a chance to survive You don't wanna cross paths or collide Hide in plain sight with a brand new disguise