Snow Blindness (feat. Sepha., Rivilin & Tsunami J.)

So time goes quickly And we love repeating A moment to share All that we never share So fool me and fill me up With cheer and grace I'm ready for Anything else but This mass hysteria This negative place I'm ready to replace The noise this year Fool me and fill me up With cheer and grace I'm ready for Anything else but This mass hysteria This negative place I'm ready to replace The noise this year It's suicidal Running in the snow blindness I gotta catch up Make sure that I'm there for christmas If I don't make it I know that I will not be missed Burnt out for someone I know who doesn't give a shit I try my best to be someone Who can't fake a smile But what's the point When you haven't got the energy to try They say that family comes first But I know that's just a lie Just another shitty christmas To fight off my denial It's this emptiness you feel When you've finally reached your home Yeah like no one recognizes you Yeah what have you become I know it's been a few years But tell me what have I done wrong They're the ones who separated a family They want me gone So watch the frost build up on my fingertips Now that I'm looking in from the outside Try to reconnect with a family That doesn't understand why I'm trapped at the bedside Chronic fatigue tries to talk to me And explains the reasons why I'm always denied Cus you're never there and you never will be That's the answer why they won't accept me I am healing from the years Of my constant beating fears I keep searching disappear Man there's nothing for me here I'm just clearing through my mirrors I be hurting through the cheers I be failing to appear Man I'm frozen with the air I keep thinking was it fair Was it promised or a plan? Everybody wants a stan But could never hold a fan I see blinking when I stare There's a problem with me man I see death upon demand Even when I have a band I know I just found my Fucking sorrow Of tomorrow And so here's to Another year Full of fake tears Crystal white fears It's suicidal Running in the snow blindness I gotta catch up Make sure that I'm there for christmas If I don't make it I know that I will not be missed Burnt out for someone I know who doesn't give a shit I try my best to be someone Who can't fake a smile But what's the point When you haven't got the energy to try They say that family comes first But I know that's just a lie Just another shitty christmas To fight off my denial It's suicidal Running in the snow blindness I gotta catch up Make sure that I'm there for christmas If I don't make it I know that I will not be missed Burnt out for someone I know who doesn't give a shit I try my best to be someone Who can't fake a smile But what's the point When you haven't got the energy to try They say that family comes first But I know that's just a lie Just another shitty christmas To fight off my denial