Twenty-Eight

I just wanna kill this shit I don't see another way out I've been crawling on my knees for this Been afraid of my own damn self I'll see you on the other side One night With an empty life, in the daylight Seeing 28 where the stage is bright Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right This is torture for a soul who hangs on to a wish I grab my stress and pity texts I add it to the list You took control of who I am when I was just a kid And now I'm 21 I lie about my tears again Got me for everything You never fail to show up Stole opportunities from me and labeled it just like love I spend a week inside my issues and I feature the front I leave my room in early morning sober smile like a Angel A fearless bitch You will never let me be those things until the pain lifts I got no more energy for you who thought that I'd win Needing help you kick me While I'm drowning in the deep end Little by little by little I figure you out Nobody'd ever believe it I let my guard down I just wanna kill this shit I don't see another way out I've been crawling on my knees for this Been afraid of my own damn self I'll see you on the other side One night With an empty life, in the daylight Seeing 28 where the stage is bright Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right You don't even know what kind of pressures on my shoulders I've been having all the weight on me since I was 10 years old And now the more that I am growing is the more I'm looking backward Trying to see what I did wrong and is this what I'm truly after Factoring in the people that I'm letting go of The necessary steps to this I'll never take control of And I can see the way they judge me I can see the way they smile I can tell if they support us or just looking for a ride Writing down the words and my heart beats a little faster I don't want you to be worried but you know what happens after If I only took a minute just to breathe and feel the laughter I'd be closer to my friends and family far from this disaster Man it got really hard I just wanna kill this shit I don't see another way out I've been crawling on my knees for this Been afraid of my own damn self I'll see you on the other side One night With an empty life, in the daylight Seeing 28 where the stage is bright Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right