Butterfly Bulletholes

Are you the moonlight that shines onto my shelf? I dreamt I held me, but I was someone else You're in my eyes now, you're clouding up my sight You were the danger, you were the breath of life We were just children when I was 22 I thought I loved me enough for even you I drank your poison with holy water pride I was in danger, disguised as cosmic light Said there's no reason To go on for just another day Would you now tell me Everything is finally okay? 'Cause there's butterfly bulletholes On the inside of my skull Dying was your final cry 'Cause living was a pretty lie Everything is still the same The flowers look at me the same way But I'm holding on for my dear life Confusing bullets for butterflies Now you're the omen, but you're the devil too Why can I fear them, but I can't fear you? And what is it like within the world of night? I wanna know how to live without a fear of life 'Cause there's no reason To hold onto you another day 'Cause something tells me Everything is finally okay With these butterfly bulletholes On the inside of my skull Living was too hard to try So you'd rather close your eyes and die I don't think that I'm the same Even though it looks that way 'Cause I'm holding on for my dear life Confusing bullets for butterflies