I somehow found a way to blame myself
Watching you fight
It broke my heart and it broke my health
Praying for the day that we meet again
I'll always love you and I'll see your face again
Writing to you I'm just tryna get my closure
Lot of things that's in my heart I wish I told ya
I went off the rails, I lost my composure
Now I fell in love with drugs I'm never sober
If I could go back in time
There's a lot that I would change
Doing anything you ask of me and I'd never complain
Trade the life I'm living just to hear you calling out my name
But I came to the conclusion that I'll never be the same
Feel this void deep within
Turning to drugs for the peace
Mum hate the way I'm living
Told her it is what it is
I'm speaking honestly
Ain't tryna fit description of a rapper in the industry
All these pills just help me sleep
Anytime I close my eyes
There he is in front of me
Haunted by these memories
Devil he won't let me sleep
See him fighting for his life
On the floor repeatedly
All these pills that's in my hand
I just hope that will be me
I somehow found a way to blame myself
Watching you fight
It broke my heart and it broke my health
Praying for the day that we meet again
I'll always love you and I'll see your face again
