Lyrics
I'm starting to feel like I don't care anymore
I'm giving it my best but I don't know if I can hold on
Don't get me wrong it's not your fault
It's just good old me and my fucked up thoughts
And I don't even know what the future's gonna hold
I've thought of ending it all by myself
But I didn't think that it'd be so scary
And I don't wanna go yet
That's what I decided then
But these thoughts are walking right beside me
I can't sleep
Can someone please hold me?
Please please please
I don't wanna die in my sleep
I don't want anything to be hurting that deep
Waking up everyday in a cold sweat
I don't wanna hold my body and weep, no
I'm losing my grip of reality
Fighting the demons that no one can ever see
Thought I was living a life in a prophesy
But look at me writing this whole ass apology
God, I'm falling apart
Please hold me close, please hold me hard
Deliver me from this evil at heart
Or else I'd be just a new death in the charts
Mama don't cry for me when you see my face in the mortuary
Hold my hands and know this please that I was the seed of this misery
The world will see it's tyranny when my words will go down in history
I believe that I can see whatever is left of me inside of me is finally gone
My soul is now torn
I wished to be born in a time when no pain will be spawned
They broke me in half, I was focused on fixing it
Whom I called friends were the one's who be causing it
People I love were always dismissing it
Left me on read when I was just missing them
Tired of acting like I have no feelings
Tired of faking a smile in the meetings
Tired of just looking up at the ceiling
Tired of living a life with no meaning
I've been overthinking a lot these days
And I always feel like everyone around me hates me
And I don't wanna feel like this
I feel like shit
Wanna fix myself
Can't deal with this shit
So please
Can someone please hold me?
Why can't I be what I wanted to be
The world isn't fair, and nobody's free
Gripped in the arms of pressure and see
There's so many people who're fighting to flee from this madness (Madness)
Crying from sadness (Sadness)
Cause that's what I see when I look out my window
And think of the people who live through this darkness
Since my desires have always been pure
I never thought I would be looking for cures
By ending this suffering I will be sure
That people will judge me like I'm immature
But what do I do besides being broken?
I hope to be true to my family that's coping
From being so lost, as I'm not home
I'm trying to know what my destiny holds
Standing on edge I can take it no more
When I shed a tear I shut my own door
Cause I'm just not ready to show my own core
Cause it's not just the pain, it's so fucking more
"You are a boy you can't be emotional
Showing your weaknesses are you delusional
Pick yourself up and try to look strong"
Why?
Is crying so wrong?
No matter how many times you've been stabbed
No matter how many times you've been mad
No matter what kind of things makes you sad
You are important and you are a lad
You are a dad who's been living alone
Taking your kids to school and then home
You are a brother who cares for your kin
But sometimes the burdens hurting from within
You are a son who lives with his mum
Cause you love her so much and no that's not wrong
You are a friend who never betrayed anybody
And that's when you know you have won
Can someone please hold me?
Can someone please hold me?
Writer(s): Bijit Das
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