Hold Me (feat. Karthik Sankar)

I'm starting to feel like I don't care anymore I'm giving it my best but I don't know if I can hold on Don't get me wrong it's not your fault It's just good old me and my fucked up thoughts And I don't even know what the future's gonna hold I've thought of ending it all by myself But I didn't think that it'd be so scary And I don't wanna go yet That's what I decided then But these thoughts are walking right beside me I can't sleep Can someone please hold me? Please please please I don't wanna die in my sleep I don't want anything to be hurting that deep Waking up everyday in a cold sweat I don't wanna hold my body and weep, no I'm losing my grip of reality Fighting the demons that no one can ever see Thought I was living a life in a prophesy But look at me writing this whole ass apology God, I'm falling apart Please hold me close, please hold me hard Deliver me from this evil at heart Or else I'd be just a new death in the charts Mama don't cry for me when you see my face in the mortuary Hold my hands and know this please that I was the seed of this misery The world will see it's tyranny when my words will go down in history I believe that I can see whatever is left of me inside of me is finally gone My soul is now torn I wished to be born in a time when no pain will be spawned They broke me in half, I was focused on fixing it Whom I called friends were the one's who be causing it People I love were always dismissing it Left me on read when I was just missing them Tired of acting like I have no feelings Tired of faking a smile in the meetings Tired of just looking up at the ceiling Tired of living a life with no meaning I've been overthinking a lot these days And I always feel like everyone around me hates me And I don't wanna feel like this I feel like shit Wanna fix myself Can't deal with this shit So please Can someone please hold me? Why can't I be what I wanted to be The world isn't fair, and nobody's free Gripped in the arms of pressure and see There's so many people who're fighting to flee from this madness (Madness) Crying from sadness (Sadness) Cause that's what I see when I look out my window And think of the people who live through this darkness Since my desires have always been pure I never thought I would be looking for cures By ending this suffering I will be sure That people will judge me like I'm immature But what do I do besides being broken? I hope to be true to my family that's coping From being so lost, as I'm not home I'm trying to know what my destiny holds Standing on edge I can take it no more When I shed a tear I shut my own door Cause I'm just not ready to show my own core Cause it's not just the pain, it's so fucking more "You are a boy you can't be emotional Showing your weaknesses are you delusional Pick yourself up and try to look strong" Why? Is crying so wrong? No matter how many times you've been stabbed No matter how many times you've been mad No matter what kind of things makes you sad You are important and you are a lad You are a dad who's been living alone Taking your kids to school and then home You are a brother who cares for your kin But sometimes the burdens hurting from within You are a son who lives with his mum Cause you love her so much and no that's not wrong You are a friend who never betrayed anybody And that's when you know you have won Can someone please hold me? Can someone please hold me?