Life Again

When I rap it's like I'm talking to myself What's the point of interacting if you ain't putting towards the wealth Bro told me stack it but don't leave it on the shelf Yea I gotta take control of my life again Using drugs to ease the pain I popped Vicodin They tried to steal my soul I chose life again I'll drop dead right now just to see you smile again I think I lost my mind Started running out of time My mama ask me how I'm doing I just say I'm fine Yo people ask and you say no they say you out of line I wonder, if I died, would tears come to their eyes Forgive me for my disrespect, can't forgive you for them lies I think you against me then I'm cutting ties And fuck making amends I don't even try Sometimes I wanna give up Sometimes I hear my grandmama talking to me She said you better wake up Sold myself a dream ain know I was sleep I got pent up animosity I unfollowed my philosophy So can't nobody talk to me Ion want nobody talk to me I gotta take control of my life again Using drugs to ease the pain I popped Vicodin They tried to steal my soul I chose life again I'll drop dead right now just to see you smile again I think I lost my mind Started running out of time My mama ask me how I'm doing I just say I'm fine Yo people ask and you say no they say you out of line I can't be around you no more Boy this shit crazy Super Bowl ring You was Gronk I was brady He pulled up in a range How he left in a Mercedes Told em fore I showed em Man they thought that I was crazy 10 years ago this ain't how I saw myself Preaching hustle but all I really did was exhaust myself Never checked the price but look at what I cost myself I suppressed my personality and lost myself You come to me with pain and agony I'm lost myself Fell out of love with being numb I fucking caught myself This nigga hard as fuck on god Best nigga out Big dude Yea I gotta take control of my life again Using drugs to ease the pain I popped Vicodin They tried to steal my soul I chose life again I'll drop dead right now just to see you smile again I think I lost my mind Started running out of time My mama ask me how I'm doing I just say I'm fine Yo people ask and you say no they say you out of line And I been lost I'm tryna get back to myself Ion trust nobody so it's hard to ask for help Got all this money but I really need love I'm not a junky but I really need drugs Don't hit my phone cause I'm not gon pick up I know I'm wrong but I had to stick up Sometimes I feel like I can't go back to my hood I saw yo face that's how I know that I ain't good I fell out of love with mirrors When I look I don't see me Someone tell me who I'm sposed to be Come back me to me I'm tryna put myself together I gotta take control of my life again Using drugs to ease the pain I popped Vicodin They tried to steal my soul I chose life again I'll drop dead right now just to see you smile again I think I lost my mind Started running out of time My mama ask me how I'm doing I just say I'm fine Yo people ask and you say no they say you out of line Sometimes I wanna give up Sometimes I hear my grandmama talking to me She said you better wake up Sold myself a dream ain know I was sleep