Why

Got nowhere to go but hey I just keep on crawlin Lift my head, I see you're dead, wait now look who's fallen I get up every morning just to feel the same ol' fright God knows there's a heaven, but it's out of sight, out of sight Even though we've walked a million miles, I can't find no light I've gained some recognition but I lost my appetite Doing things I wouldn't dare I swear to God you're in there Nevermind I say that all the time, I think I've lost my mind Learning from my past Seeing all things fast Killing myself every night thinking that it won't last Fighting for my life and I still can't find who asked Why you wanna know this I won't start a podcast? Why you say my name? Why you play this game? Why you gotta come up with some shit that you can't tame? Why you in my lane, bitch I found my own fame? Why you always hating on me when I'm the one advocating? Why you gotta hurt my shit when you have left me in the pit? Why you come back saying jack when I'm the one listing facts? Why you can't accept the truth you can't stay here this ain't no booth? Why you need to put your pain on me? Just let me breathe and be free Can't escape I'm drowning in sorrow I got no place to go tomorrow I don't have my own life Just a ticket out and a fight, ain't that right? And I'll say it again, I can't fight the feds Looking at those meds, feeling all kinda crazy up in my head I got no place to go except, right to bed, ayy Ooh, I'm feeling, I'm feeling kinda sad, but not so bad When I'm off the fad, getting kinda mad Not at my dad, but I love the lads Oh, hey! It's you The one who caused all my pain and suffering Made me cry every night, didn't sleep so tight, never got it right, hey Oh, here we go now Getting kinda hype, we up past midnight Blow like a bombsite, it's a cockfight, yeah Sneezed on a Friday, sneezed for sorrow Sneeze on a Saturday, joy tomorrow Playing water polo, you call me Marco Passing on the problems, bitch I ain't your cargo Playing games with me like yours to borrow Nothing can escape this dream I'm in some damn elaborate scheme Trapped in this, all you do is hiss When I try and speak you just try and kiss I don't take your sympathy, you still think I feel the symmetry We never had it right, never got it tight Always talked and ended in fights Lost the connection, felt the depression, and drifted away Can you stop this fight? I keep repeating myself over and over again But all you did was mess up my head Even in bed, but I said never again Look at me now! All better right? Nah, I'm the same mess I left you with