I had my fun, 'til my fun turned into humiliation and a suicide scare
I try to lead with love, but I hurt everyone that gets close enough to show me that they care
I cry alone in my room or out back, with my finger down my throat
Expelling shame I can't bear
Every day, I say I'm done, 'til I see that setting sun
But tonight, I'm gonna fight white knuckle
I lost my passion and my looks, my stomach's turning like a brook
I told my best friend I wanted to buy a gun
I don't know how I wound up here, feels like I lost so many years
Spend all my time saying sorry to everyone
Sorry
I don't know how I wound up here
The smallest things brings me to tears
And once they're gone, I am complеtely numb
I don't know how I wound up here
I resent the insight of life experience
All these lessons only bring me harm
All these battles only leave me scarred
Oh, how I long to go back to the start
Oh, how I long to go back to the start
