I Lied

Well I blame it on my parents cause I guess I'm predisposed To want things I shouldn't ever want and now it's getting old And I blame it on the fantasies I built within my mind It's a mechanism I discovered when I was a child And I blame it on the sister that I never got to have Maybe all of the attention is what did me in so bad Cause I wake up with a burning in my body, in my chest And I never find the answers to the questions on the test oh I went and told you I was fine Shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I'd left it all behind I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good Shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could I lied, I lied I-I-I-I lied, I lied I-I-I-I lied, I lied Well I blame it on the list of things I wrote inside my head All the moments that I've longed for All the things I've never said Like; I wish that I was different I wish that they would know me I wish the weight was lifted I wish that you would hold me I went and told you I was fine Shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I'd left it all behind I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good Shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could I lied, I lied I-I-I-I lied, I lied I-I-I- Wish that I could say I I never let it phase me That I don't lay down and cry But I've been empty all this time I went and told you I was I fine Shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I'd left it all behind I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good Shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could I lied, I lied I went and told you I was I fine Shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I'd left it all behind I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good Shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could I lied, I lied It's almost cathartic, the heartache Brings me down to my knees almost every time I told you I was fine, I told you I was fine Oh I lied, I lied