Mayday

I don't feel like myself It's getting hard to tell What is real and what is make believe Afraid to go outside Afraid of all their eyes Burning little holes into my skin It could be Just pretend A dark play Inside my own head But how do you know if you're crazy When you're already swimming in the deep end I feel the paranoia creeping in Now I don't know if I can trust my friends Feel like a plane without a pilot Mayday baby, Mayday Now every time I'm in the kitchen I'm afraid to use a knife Always picturing violence I don't want to die but when I'm driving into headlights I see my body flying through the glass I see myself in front of buses And balcony jumping Tell me what the fuck is going on Where do these thoughts come from? Tell me where do these thoughts come from? I feel the paranoia creeping in Now I don't know if I can trust my friends Feel like a plane without a pilot Mayday baby, Mayday I don't know what's wrong with me I can't remember who I used to be I don't know what's wrong with me I can't remember who I used to be I'm afraid I've done things I can't remember Wish I could pack up all these thoughts And return them to sender I feel the paranoia creeping in Now I don't know if I can trust my friends Feel like a plane without a pilot Mayday baby, Mayday I don't know what's wrong with me I can't remember who I used to be I don't know what's wrong with me I can't remember who I used to be What's wrong with me? I can't remember who I used to be What's wrong with me? I can't remember who I used to be