This Ain’t Going Well

This ain't goin' well I wish that we had been a better version of us You can't love somebody Who you didn't ever really trust I keep wondering about the plans I had I keep wondering what I do with them This is the part where I remember All the beautiful things you said and done Even though I know that's just my head Messing with my heart again I keep wondering about the plans I had I keep wondering what I do with them When it started I was sure that This would be easy I was looking for easy When it blew up It messed me up I think it was all me I didn't make it easy but I I keep wondering about the plans I had I keep wondering what I do with them I keep wondering about the plans I had I keep wondering what I do with them This ain't going well I wish that I had been a better version of me But I can't love somebody Who doesn't love the worst parts of me