Maybe

As I'm growing up life's teaching me lessons I've self diagnosed with some clinical depression Look at my reflection and got one question Is the life I'm living right now really a blessing I ain't got mates cos I cut niggas off Don't hesitate when I cut niggas off This ain't no rap cap shit this is real life shit How can I bring fakes to the winners spot Took a lot up out me cos I give a lot Maybe it's the devil cos I sin a lot Or maybe it's the genes stuck in my DNA then in which case imma pop a pill a lot Or maybe I'll commit suicide Maybe I'm wrong and everybody's right Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try Maybe I should hide but I'm never gonna hide Maybe I should cry butI'm never gonna cry Maybe I should die but I don't wanna die Maybe I'm losing it, maybe I'm gonna find I'm gonna find my way through this The Lord knows that I'm tired of this nuisance All these books about self-improving But is it myself that I'm improving Giving advice to everyone around me Never getting advice from anyone around me She told me I was a waste, I said don't ever doubt me And when I bring in the cake, don't bring a plate around me She told me that I was a waste of the skin that I'm in Told me the successes I can taste ain't a thing I'd probably end up dead if I listened to the bitch Don't take in negativity, just cut it off quick Maybe I'm gonna rise, maybe I'm gonna climb Maybe I'm gonna beat odds and I'm ahead of time Maybe my new shit will blow up in the summertime Or maybe I'll commit suicide Maybe I'm wrong and everybody's right Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try Put in all this work man I put in all this work I wanna get the flowers 'fore I end up in the dirt I wanna get the real recognition I deserve Especially when I know all the devils I deterred I'd rather regret than say what if You don't tell me the truth you ain't solid Came a long way from my broke days at college Now I'm penning these songs that they need to acknowledge Anyway I'm switching up the topic When I sold food, never made no profit I was never hard so they ticked and they promised Never paid man back so I'd pay from my pocket Damn, trappers gotta tell us 'bout the downsides too I only chat for me I can't chat for my goons If I said it then it's only ever gonna be my view I only chat for me I can't chat for my goons Maybe my niggas lied, maybe it's just I Maybe I shoulda never trapped but I did try Maybe I shoulda never rapped but I did try Or maybe I'll commit suicide Maybe I'm wrong and everybody's right Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try