Aspie, Pt. 1

Ever felt outta place Like you didn't belong Plagued by mistakes Always been in the wrong Wrongdoer due to rules Everybody just knew Got trouble, got punished Though I never meant to Too much to deal with I can't conceal it Hear the sound of the heel Feel the teacher's spit What the fuck is going on Don't you dare look away Look me in my eyes Don't you dare disobey Looked for less than a second I reckon unpleasant pestering Penalty pending I wish I was a petal in the wind Gripped on my arm Dragged out of my chair Now they laugh now they stare Now I'm gasping for air Etiquette erroneous I failed once again I cannot get a hold of this I'll never be like them They had it easy Cause they had fun I was uneasy Felt besieged by a Gatling gun How it was for me Is How it had to be Got scars you can't see Like others like me I Live on a planet Unsuitable to me And there's no room to flee In the life of an aspie How it was for me Is How it had to be Got scars you can't see Like others like me I Live on a planet Unsuitable to me And there's no room to flee In the life of an aspie Ever felt like you Never had the slightest clue Everybody else around Always knew what to do They knew what to say And they knew how to act They knew what to play And they knew to adapt Fact of the matter Mannerisms matter much I manage manlike manners But man, I'm really out of touch Toughen up, up my knowledge On the social stuff Tried to socialize with everyone But wasn't up to snuff Studied social cues Body language, vocal tone Woeful alone How I differ hit close to home Hope against hope That I can learn the ropes And in turn stop the burn As the butt of the jokes Looked at Mr popular With his popped collar He was a top dollar kid And I had no dollar Discerned that my rags Were a cause of concern Yet another way I differ Will I ever see the tide turn How it was for me Is How it had to be Got scars you can't see Like others like me I Live on a planet Unsuitable to me And there's no room to flee In the life of an aspie How it was for me Is How it had to be Got scars you can't see Like others like me I Live on a planet Unsuitable to me And there's no room to flee In the life of an aspie Ever felt like it's Never gonna pan out for you That a normal life is never due And stupid to pursue Felt this a lot And I still do Been through a lot But I pulled through Truth be told I never thought that I would be this old Odds only been against me Cause I don't fit no mold Mowed my own way Was fight or flight everyday People told me what to do But never me showed the way Way to leave me in a pickle When I need a pick-me up Picked brains plenteous And plenty think I'm anencephalous And I don't ever feel As if I measure up Tremendously tremulous With a fear of speaking up Stuck to myself Kept my mouth shut Fear of people fear of speaking Fear infested in my gut Farewell to the common Normal life for me Solid solitary its your Seldom social aspie How it was for me Is How it had to be Got scars you cant see Like others like me I Live on a planet Unsuitable to me And theres no room to flee In the life of an aspie How it was for me Is How it had to be Got scars you cant see Like others like me I Live on a planet Unsuitable to me And theres no room to flee In the life of an aspie