Sitting On the Sun

I do not know where I am going I do not know how I am flowing All that I know is I'm stuck in this life And the only way out is to keep on growing I'm really the problem with my own deep thoughts And when I try to run I just freeze up Cuz I do not know what to do with myself Except to keep living in spite of myself And I wake up in places I can't call home It's like when I sleep I just go off the dome I'm pushing myself just to be with you all But I know I think better when I'm all alone And I've tried to confide in you more than once I've laid in your chair but I ain't got the funds I'm really the worst when it comes down to talking So I just stay quiet and we keep on walking I feel like I was never meant to be heard I feel like my problems are just like the herds Everyone's heard them, again and again I know I'm in debt, so I run to my den That I know I could run to and no one complains So, no one would have to go through all my pain That doesn't mean I don't wanna be close to you That is just me not trying to lose you I run and I dash you can call me Icarus Promise you no one will notice the difference Yea, that's my problem, it's part of my ignorance Trying my hardest gets me in the precipice I burnt myself up and I turn into ashes I do not try to give viable passes I'm bold when I push back all your advances In my mind I give myself too many chances like Blowing up do you see the change Sitting on the sun so far away You know it hurts when I wanna stay But you love it when I'm the same I sit on the sun to catch where I'm going And when I fly high I lose my emotions I can't tell you my left from my right And when I come down, you say I'm alright But my thoughts seems so milky Way out of reach My world is so spun But I can't even teach I hurts me like hell when I run from the pack But I trust you won't find me until I come back, it's like Burning up give me a heart attack All alone I can't take it back Zero gravity this world insane Cuz you love it when I'm in pain My only desire Is to fix this mess by running through the fire Lemme go higher Only looking up not to anything prior No I'll never retire I ain't thinking bout last night Bout last month Bout the last fight I had With the girl I think will be the last one I'll ever have Cuz I'm on a mission now leave me alone Is it impossible to let it all go Sorry if you wanted to have a good time I'm tryna get through so stay off my grind Get close to me and watch it all burn Only go forward no twist no turns Cuz I sit on the sun I eat the heat baby Like Miami I'm coming up Yea baby I'm coming up Blowing up do you see the change Sitting on the sun so far away You know it hurts when I wanna stay But you love it when I'm the same I sit on the sun to catch where I'm going And when I fly high I lose my emotions I can't tell you my left from my right And when I come down, you say I'm alright But my thoughts seems so milky Way out of reach My world is so spun But I can't even teach I hurts me like hell when I run from the pack But I trust you won't find me until I come back, it's like Burning up give me a heart attack All alone I can't take it back Zero gravity this world insane Cuz you love it when I'm in pain