Can You See Me

Tell me why I'm here Show me you can hear me Are the things I say too much Am I running out of luck The only thing I've ever been faithful to is my music Hard pill to swallow OD-ing because I choose it I do keep trying to make party tunes it's Kind of hard when I constantly feel like I'm about to lose it Please don't confuse this with some sort testimony Shape shifting friends started acting phony No matter how much shade cunts throw you won't control me No amount of money in the world will stop me feeling lonely Baby mothers playing games such a shame Chucking blame, so much hate, all I want's to see is my kids face I'm Stuck in this cage as my brain tightens the restraints spitting flames King of the jungle this lion that can't be tamed Straight roaring on the beats I probably sound insane That's not far from the truth what can I say Setting fire to the booth represent since day Society got a grip like I'm molded out clay Got me acting out of character People think mental health's a trend but trust it shatters ya Booze tightens it's grip until it flattens ya I need to take back control but still acting like an armature Growing up traumatized I didn't realize I locked away Certain things turned the cheek pulling wool over my own eyes And still I act surprised that most nights I'm broken down Tell me why I'm here Show me you can hear me Are the things I say too much Am I running out of luck I been fighting for what feels like forever Do you even see me Did I make this look too easy Cause I'm tired, too tired Need to start listening to all this advice but self doubt in my Head got me turning left but I know it's right Jesus Christ Acting like mediocre will suffice Treading water to survive Made to feel like bitch when I can't help but cry Getting chastised Made to feel like a piece of shit And people wonder why my thought patterns slit your wrist Feel so ashamed of it Wonder if I wasn't round would people benefit I know what their answer is Can't keep thinking this way I got kids And family that love me so I keep wading through the grit Trying to reach to people struggling, just a hypocrite Story's spooky like some tales from the crypt Sends shivers down my spine every time I'm telling it to therapist I Feel so irrelevant Life in the balance thoughts swinging like a pendulum Used to be part of a regiment Afghanistan got me fucked up now I'm addressing the elephant Living in my room stampeding in its settlement Guess it's in its element The pain I feel can't be obtained in any kind of measurement Feel like a guinea pig in a messed up experiment Being observed for new developments For new developments Tell me why I'm here Show me you can hear me Are the things I say too much Am I running out of luck