Run Away

They tell me take it one day At a time Life been gettin too real sum ain't right How the bottle half empty and the sun ain't rise Yeah the smoke done cleared it's still blood in my eyes I'm a 1000 miles away and the pain still the same In a different mind space so please forgive me if I'm vague I get lost in myself so it don't matter what you say They tell me leave that shit alone but I don't listen anyway Weight of the world on my shoulders, hard to find someone lean on Soon as you think it's all over that's when you find the most to feed on My nigga lost his job I told him dream on Could of been scholar somewhere in college But he got methods I told scheme on I love when money make a difference but don't make you different Why the hell she sell her pussy just to make a living Love don't mean a thing she told me all she know is Ben Franklins Don't try to ask he bout her life she gone say mind ya business This the land of the free so far from hallelujah Money a make ya best friend act like he ain't never knew ya Diamonds give me pride but heart frozen from past relations Times changed just threw back a perc 30 for no reason This my last time yeah that line seems to be my favorite I'll start fresh Monday it's only Wednesday morning I'm pourin drank I'm pourin drank I'm pourin drank It's no wonder I can't even focus Life ain't all bad I just been drugging for a week straight Coolin Me n mup just killed a 5th its a week day My friends mad at me cuz I can't stay sober Damn Well shit I'm mad at me too I look in the mirror scream what you want me to do I'll blow it all right now like I got nothing to lose Don't go insane Don't go insane Don't go insane It's almost over I'm sittin thinkin bout some shit that I could did sum better I got issues just like u I joke and laugh bout my depression I feel so lonely on this earth that why I leave this bitch so seldom Suicide it cross my mind I wouldn't lie but I'm too special I got a problem I let temporary feelings block my blessings I'm so sorry I been tryin I been trying to do better Can smoke and drink but can't fit time for my family in my schedule Walk with faith somehow still dancing with the devil Don't run away