Absolutely Disgusting

She said that's absolutely disgusting The way you treat these girls And I got all defensive But I knew she wasn't wrong And I tried to think of excuses A way to justify But all that I could think of The biggest lie And that's absolutely unmanageable To think of you this much We tell each-other so much But I always leave out half 'Cause I don't want you to know me And the way I really am And I don't want to subject you To this again (One, two, three, four) You know it's absolutely pathetic The way I used you up And I told you things I didn't mean To make you stick around When you realise I'm a liar And you've wasted all these years It'll hurt you much more than it hurts me It hurts me You know it's absolute insanity As waking up these days And the sea of blood on TV The endless grey parade And our hearts have all been pulped up Like the reddest things on earth So we cut each-other open And drink the hurt Drink the hurt You know it's absolutely impossible To get out of here alive You'll get 80 years if you're lucky Before you start to die In the hospitals and hallways Where we lean against the walls And we dream about how we were long before Long before You know I'm absolutely terrified That I'll wake up one day And they'll be no-one left here Who'll put up with me this way And you'll all say I deserved it You'll all say we all told you so And I'll have to admit that I should have known Should have known And it's absolutely wonderful To speak to you again A better job, new boyfriend Guess all it takes is time And I hope I get there someday 'Cause I know I'm not there yet But I swear to god in heaven I'm not scared I'm not scared I'm not scared I'm not scared And so it's absolutely disgusting