I Didn't Know

I didn't know, I didn't know I didn't know, I didn't know 750 everyday it was habitual Guess this was my escape I was a functional drunk Drinking liquor once I woke up On work breaks I'd have liquid lunch If I popped a bottle I'll drink till it's done Family events No body else drinking I'm thee only one Drunk by myself I was just having fun Couldn't tell me nothing Was reckless and young Most nights end up blacking out Don't remember the drive how I ended up home Who gave me a shower put my PJs on A shot in the morning now hangovers gone I didn't know when to stop I didn't know that I had a problem I didn't know what to call it I didn't know I was the family alcoholic I didn't know, I didn't know I didn't know, I didn't know 750 everyday it was habitual Guess this was my escape from the physical I didn't know, I didn't know I didn't know, I didn't know That life would be this difficult I didn't know My mother wouldn't see 60 years old I didn't know When I drink before I smoke That block work hit like Za The weed out weighs the liquor It happens every time My world it started spinning The feeling was sublime Addicted to this feeling A different state of mind Thinking if I throw up I'll be fine Telling god I'll never drink again Knowing damn well I'm lying Thinking if I throw up I'll be fine Telling god I'll never drink again I was the family alcoholic I didn't know, I didn't know I didn't know, I didn't know 750 everyday it was habitual Guess this was my escape from the physical I didn't know, I didn't know I didn't know, I didn't know That life would be this difficult I didn't know My mother wouldn't see 60 years old I didn't know