Rekindle 23

I been in that war, but I ain't say it My dog just finished trial and lost the case Couple days before I was a pallbearer and buried Jay I ain't walk up on his casket when it's open I ain't want that to be the last time I seen his face When I seen my tear fall I ain't cry in a while, but I seen blood And it's feelin' deep, we ain't lose connect So we ain't talk, but that's still my thug I felt his soul when I was huggin' her tight When I gave his mama a hug I'm still mad, tryna rekindle our flame But you know it's still love I'm tryin' But it's only so much that a nigga can take Inside i'm dying Every day feel like my last, in the morning, I won't be awake With all my love, been tryna make this mountain move Still be tryin' even though I know it's impossible How could I be so foolish for believing in love? Know it's limited moments I got with you and this time ain't enough YB just lost federal trial, it got my head spinnin' Grandma asked me, was I at peace? I told her, "It's been a minute" They say I beat the streets But I promise it don't seem like i'm winning God keep a close eye on me You know How I get when I'm healin' Know how I get when I'm dealin' Suicidal thoughts, I be trippin' I been out of touch with my feelings Emotionally scarred, but I'm willin' They say I'm weird 'cause I'm different I still won't change with these millions I cry pain 'cause I feel it They ain't say bad news, but I hear it I'm tryin' But it's only so much that a nigga can take Inside i'm dying Every day feel like my last In the morning, I won't be awake Ayy, I be tryna move my feet, but my heart just got me stuck When I started to see that they cared That's when they showed me they don't give a fuck When I love, my heart start beating, I can't let you in easy Why should I be the one to stay when I know you gon' leave me? Mortician wanted me to talk at Jay funeral But I was tryna stay strong enough even though I was vulnerable I had 23 once before, but I lost him two times We wasn't on good terms before he died, I wished I called his line The shit we was fighting over, we could've got over it Had our differences in 2019, but nobody noticed it Still love you like my brother I hope you know it Embracin' all my feelings like a poet I just seen the devil flash right 'cross my eyes In my dreams, I seen a shovel bury me alive All your friends and, yeah, all brothers died Baby, I need you here Just right here by my side Feel like bad luck is me, feel like I'm cursed I know everybody go through shit But I go through the worst Hurt people hurt people I lied when I said I believe him I wouldn't be surprised if out of the blue That my heart'll stop beating I showed 'em my weakness I'm tryin' But it's only so much that a nigga can take Inside i'm dying Every day feel like my last In the morning, I won't be awake You know, like, real niggas go through shit You feel me? I won't try to hide it 'cause I know this shit be real You feel what I'm sayin'? I can't hide this shit, this shit just be me That's who I am, like I feel this shit, you know what I'm sayin'? Like, every step of the way It's always somethin' else Every time I open my eyes It's somethin', I close 'em, it's somethin' else I wake up, open again, it's somethin' else That's just my life