Lately (Demo)

I can't seem to fall asleep these days Maybe I should grind this pain away and smoke today But I should deal with this when I feel like this I don't want to fall asleep this way this way The sobers me developing Learnt to let go I'm tryna focus on the present tense Gifted with the rapping (wrapping) but nobody was present when I spot these suss moves through emotional intelligence Arthur taught me things that he will never know Sometimes in life you carry weight but you must let it go It's true certain dishes serve better cold I pray Sean picks himself up that's my bigger bro Where's the trigger tho? yo have you got the ammunition? Sick of ending motives chatting business in a random kitchen Thought that I was sound but really had to listen In between the lines is where you find the truth in bad decisions Who's gunna save me? save me from myself? Lost in day dream coz lately I can't seem to fall asleep these days Maybe I should grind this pain away and smoke today But I should deal with this when I feel like this I don't want to fall asleep this way this way Tryna be a man keep it all legit Keep the fireplace ablaze so its always lit Home alone (loan) like a mortgage is And I ain't been consistent coz I struggle if I'm forcing it Been a shoulder for the tears of many people now I used to hate that it was me they'd choose to speak it out But I embrace we need to deep our doubts when we are down It's iust ironic that my circle really haven't been around Been around to see when I'm slipping Fine balance between im winning and I'm drifting Had some women turn my mind distant The right decision man I'm tryna redefine living Who's gunna save me? save me from myself? Lost in day dream coz lately I can't seem to fall asleep these days Maybe I should grind this pain away and smoke today But I should deal with this when I feel like this I don't want to fall asleep this way