Spaces

I found myself inside again The thoughts control, replay in my head Tell me what to say Tell me where to go Don't wanna feel this every single day My heart's got spaces I've got a hundred faces Wanna be myself but I'm stuck in different places Knowing that it stays this way forever Tell me when I'm gone will you remember? Heard it all before, no, I hear the words you said Pressing on my skin, feel like it's never gonna end Tell me am I crazy? Tell me am I wrong? It feels like a sin to be playing along Through it all, you shelter me You comfort me My selfishness exposed I pushed away your help Still I want you here I wish I could've been aware My heart's got spaces I've got a hundred faces Wanna be myself but I'm stuck in different places Knowing that it stays this way forever Tell me when I'm gone will you remember? Feel the waves crashing in That's the way it's always been Hands are shaking. body's aching Tired of a life lived faking I can't believe I'm standing here One day, I'll jump I'll disappear