Shapeshifter

I've had enough Putting pressure, hold it down Turning colors into brown, breakdown I'll act tough Never let you see a face with the hair outta place Nutcase Stuck inside the bathroom mirrors, gonna crack soon Will a picture prove anything compared to June? I watch as you thrive inside your time Fall deeper 'cause I'm wasting mine I always loved that purple shirt The one you threw right on the floor Will you let me wear it for a while Until I show you something more? I pinch my skin until it's gone I scream a never-ending song It hurts, but you know what they say That beauty's pain What I wouldn't do To be somebody with a sense of place I just wanna prove That I can see myself and not shift shape Who the hell are you? What did you do with the body that I knew? Can you wake me up? Think I've had enough Trying to recognize who I see close up Sixteen, I could fit into the jeans Only eat the color green, stay clean Small machine, tell me what to hold close Zoom in on the pose, I feel gross Stuck inside the shower, minutes into hours Trying to wash away all my flawed fragility I watch my hair fall down the drain Hoping it takes the weight away I used to love that orange shirt The one I threw right on the floor Don't think I'll wear it for a while Until I feel something more I pinch my legs until they're gone I'll trip, but maybe then, I've won It hurts, but you know what they say That beauty's pain What I wouldn't do To be somebody with a sense of place I just wanna prove That I can see myself and not shift shape Who the hell are you? What did you do with the body that I knew? Can you wake me up? Think I've had enough Trying to recognize who I see close up Said I was doing better But I'm not better Thought I was doing better But I'm not better Said I was doing better But I'm not better Said I was doing better But I'm not better What I wouldn't do To be somebody with a sense of place I just wanna prove That I can see myself and not shift shape Who the hell are you? What did you do with the body that I knew? Can you wake me up? I think I've had enough Trying to recognize who I see close up