Drunk Again

So I got drunk again I didn't wanna know what was happening Too many damn years stuck in my head Abandoning Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it Drunk again I didn't wanna know what was happening Too many damn years stuck in my head Abandoning Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it Feels like I'm going nowhere Fulfill my nightmare I don't get over the mountains I climb I feel like a loser A substance abuser Can't fight the river That's pulling me down I don't believe in myself I can't walk through hell Do it all by myself I don't ask for help I try to manage the pain I just drink it away Don't wanna feel this way So I got drunk again I didn't wanna know what was happening Too many damn years stuck in my head Abandoning Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it I'm not where I was But I'm not where I wanna be Do you know what I mean? Still got so far to go And this road that I lead's Got me down on my knees Slowly killing me Ohh I've tried to work through the pain I've tried numbing my brain I've tried everything I'm still going insane Set my dream up in flames Threw ambition away I can't feel this way So I got drunk again I didn't wanna know what was happening Too many damn years stuck in my head Abandoning Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it Stuck again Don't wanna think about how lost I am Distracted I'm procrastinating Always faded Maybe I won't ever make it Maybe I won't ever make it