Mood Shift

Think I just need a mood shift Cuz lately I ain't wanna do a goddamn thing and I Caught a bad case of the I don't give a fucks In a rut held up, stuck yelled up It's hot as hell in this hellhole boss Tryna get a grip with the Velcro off I ain't a kid no more It's a rip, no top No cap, no shit Fucking yeah, it's obvious you put it like that I need a mood shift Cuz lately I ain't wanna do shit And the way she treating me is ruthless Holed up in my room just staring at the ceiling and wishing for Wellbutrin I mean I ain't doing well though Mighta spent eight hours just bouncing back and forth from my laptop to my cell phone Might've done it to myself though Drowning under the weight of my own mental blocks Tryna vomit up the words to describe my stomach in knots Tied myself in knots trying to be something I'm not Love was cut into ribbons they asked for a paper hearts Should've paper mache it or Kintsugi to start I got a lot on my plate, I got a lot on my heart I got a lot left to say, but I go ghost when i'm hurt Cuz you know it's gold in my heart if I can open it first I need a mood shift Cuz lately I ain't wanna do shit And the way she treating me is ruthless Holed up in my room just staring at the ceiling and wishing for Wellbutrin I mean I ain't doing well though Mighta spent eight hours just bouncing back and forth from my laptop to my cell phone Might've done it to myself though Cut all the noise Lemme tell you this Know your mood'll shift Cuz everything ends Telling you the truth I cannot predict The way the mood moves But I hope I get there I think back to when I first wrote "Smile" Depressed as hell; had been awhile As winter turned into spring Driving and thinking it's so easy to get burnt out And then fall into the habit of being burnt out Might be the hardest part of being hurt how you have to work to unlearn the patterns of being hurt The grooves you fall into Moods need a shift This should be a song about overcoming step-by-step or some shit And I wish it was, but it's not Just a story of how I felt sad and then one day I felt better Can't even give you a reason Except to say that you never know how far away you are from seeing a Mood shift Cuz I started seeing the blues less Everything was less gloomy For the first time in ages I hit the right switch and things started moving I'm talking like a u-haul So even if it's rented I'm still feeling better Imma make it mine for too long Maybe I just need a mood rearrangement As the grooves keep changing Tryna keep a cool patience Cuz some days I'm really great And other days I'm retrograding But I reckon that I'll make it though I mean I did this shit once I can do the shit again so Might have to force my face to grin Just to practice skills I ain't mastered in a minute On how to mood shift, ooh it gets transmitted If you let it then I guess I'm just tryin' to say I hope your mood shifts too That's all