Can't explain (feat. Ethan Marino)

Really can't explain exactly how I feel Trying to numb this pain but I don't want to pop pills Don't get me wrong I don't want to kill myself Maybe I just need some help Don't know why my mental health's like this I might lose myself I can try to run away from it But theres just no way It just comes another day Like there's no other way I can't take more of this pain No matter how much I gain I'm still feeling like i'm worthless Like none of this is worth it I've done all of this searching And somehow I still feel lost Something always feels off This shit pisses me off Because I don't know what's wrong with me Baby come along with me Will you just stay strong with me I can't tell if I need you Sometimes it's gone when I see you Maybe it might be you I think it just might be you I really don't think I trust myself no more I've been inching from my past And I'll do what I do best Writing this song when i'm sounding depressed Neglecting the actions to pick up the mess Man I really hate myself right now Can't look in the mirror I don't know how I don't want to pop pills But i'm this damn close and I might just drop still So tell me how can I heal When i'm crying for help and yall just watch still Pray to god she tell me that she messing with my eyes Never will she know what i'm holding, about to cry Never will she know that I really want to do Never will I know when it'll be our last goodbye I don't think i'm wrong when I say that I can't cope But it's messing with my head though And I cannot ask for the stuff that I need So what's affecting me more I really don't want to take these drugs and just go fly away I really want to help myself I really don't want to take these drugs and just go fly away I really want to help myself I really want to help myself Really can't explain exactly how I feel Trying to numb this pain but I don't want to pop pills Don't get me wrong I don't want to kill myself Maybe I just need some help Don't know why my mental health's like this I might lose myself I can try to run away from it But theres just no way It just comes another day Like there's no other way I can't take more of this pain No matter how much I gain I'm still feeling like i'm worthless Like none of this is worth it I've done all of this searching And somehow I still feel lost Something always feels off This shit pisses me off Because I don't know what's wrong with me Baby come along with me Will you just stay strong with me I can't tell if I need you Sometimes it's gone when I see you Maybe it might be you I think it just might be you