Mythologue

On the earliest night I remember In the days before clocks all ran out I woke up all alone in a blanket Full of panic and fear and doubt On the curb, where I sat in the morning Waiting for you to come back around All the neighbors they saw as they all passed along And I sat without a sound Yeah, it followed the feeling I felt then With your knee to my throat as I gasped The world standing still in your eyes All alone and caught up in past Do you wonder why I remember? Do you wonder how I've changed? All the words that you gave stay with me Oh, they're cold, detached and deranged You are, yeah, you are My mythologue You are, yeah, you are My mythologue Now I do a good job at not letting All these things in my youth fuck me up And I've gotten so good now at vetting All these memories you dig up If you wonder why I can't speak peacefully Why it seems that I can't get control Take a look at the past, it's these moments that last As they cling and they hang to my soul Now the tendencies buried beneath My unyielding desire to sin And to know who I am outside all of this shit It still burns and it never released The hymns and the prayers never reached me They fall deaf on my ears every day 'Cause I know there's no god that could make me It is you who made me this way You are, yeah, you are My mythologue You are, yeah, you are My mythologue