Lovely

Settling into my weaknesses The fall of man and brethren will be at my own hand I stand alone to be my own self destruction I'm losing grasp of things that matter to the chatter of the winds The things that pass, harassing me and masking my ability To know just what I'm doing singing Songs to kill the loneliness away Write another and it's all okay Friends will pass, who needs them anyway? Working down my hands from dark to day Ain't it so lovely? Something's missing, wishing I could be In control, emotional and reckless, feckless, make myself A tool to deconstruct the ties to those I love, I Find it hard to know just where I stand Vicarious, my command is overthrown by my own hand I watch in horror powerless to my own mind and Everything is slipping through my hands Losing all the ones I call my friends Drinking up my time, I'm 'round the bend Drawing closer to my youthful end God it's so lovely Ain't it so lovely?