Is This What You Wanted

Write this down on my headstone "It wasn't what I hoped for" I'm twenty-four and I'm older I've still got a world of doubt on my shoulder That's been eating me away From the inside out What am I supposed to say? That I'm happy now? Walk the block in the morning Were the weekends always this boring? Fall asleep in the shower The water runs for an hour Sit alone at the table Check the fridge again maybe This is all that I hoped for But I was dumb when I left home Got a restless head in the nighttime I haven't slept that wеll in a good while I'd take pills just to calm down But I don't need one morе thing to depend on I've been sober for a week Pushing through the pain But it's all the same to me Hours into days Walk the block in the morning Are the weekends always this boring? Fall asleep in the shower The water runs for an hour Sit alone at the table Check the fridge again maybe This is all that I hoped for But I was dumb when I left home There is this weight on my chest It keeps my head down, shortens my breath It flattens my highs, fuels my regrets I'm scared it will hold me 'til I'm dead Walk the block in the morning Were the weekends always this boring? Fall asleep in the shower The water runs for an hour Sit alone at the table Check the fridge again maybe This is all that I hoped for That I was done when I left home