Obsolete

These insecurities are powerful They make me feel so obsolete I wanna sleep but now my mind is full I'll lay for hours here and think When there's no light I always see A me that I detest Why does the darkness always bring Feelings I suppressed These insecurities are powerful, powerful They make me feel so obsolete Facts fall off Glass walls up Think I'm living in the present Then the past calls up Self attacks smother Gotta grab another Set of covers so I cannot feel my skin shudder Feels like three hours Check the clock It says 10 minutes I'm alone every night So my thoughts pay a visit I keep punching myself with these low-blows I feel so alone so I live in my own Woe exhibit, ah You're invincible I can't beat my enemies When one of them is me Doesn't matter what I do your always cynical Open up my eyes But clarity is out of reach These insecurities are powerful They make me feel so obsolete I wanna sleep but now my mind is full I'll lay for hours here and think When there's no light I always see A me that I detest Why does the darkness always bring Feelings I suppressed These insecurities are powerful, powerful They make me feel so obsolete My mind is always going I'm having conversations Reliving situations All my decisions Made incisions Paper skin is breakin' Failed obligations Ruined expectations Is this really who I am or my imagination If my spirit is so broken Why's it haunting me now All my wounds have been reopened And they're mocking me now Dreams die, when I synthesize my own demise There's no way to run from my own eyes These insecurities are powerful They make me feel so obsolete I wanna sleep but now my mind is full I'll lay for hours here and think When there's no light I always see A me that I detest Why does the darkness always bring Feelings I suppressed These insecurities are powerful, powerful They make me feel so obsolete My mind is always going When the sun is up I think that I am free of it Maybe this is the night That I can sleep a bit I'm exhausted and it's hard to be so secretive But no one else should see the way I live I put up a front I'm so blessed What should I be upset about It's not like I hear Every word That comes out their mouths I should be indebted to the heavens That's their message But there's always one thing They keep forgetting These insecurities are powerful They make me feel so obsolete I wanna sleep but now my mind is full I'll lay for hours here and think When there's no light I always see A me that I detest Why does the darkness always bring Feelings I suppressed These insecurities are powerful, powerful They make me feel so obsolete My mind is always going