Lovely Fiction

My aunties dream of swimming when a child is conceived I used to pray they wouldn't dream of fishes for me Merging genes with someone kindred, what a vision Could I carry a child? Would my body go the distance? I wanna love the way mama and Ruby loved me Help them form their first sentences, survive the police, let's turn a phrase I don't wanna fight for execution stays, abbreviated living Don't know if I could teach them forgiveness cause I ain't mastered it Still giving up the master's tools Still mending shit with masking tape Still working for the master's school I pray I help you master you Hope you ask me bout the world and hope that I would tell the truth In my family offspring don't spring often I approach the prospect of you with due caution My little fiction, you can rest up in my head for now Running through my dreams, I'm scared as hell to let you down What a lovely fiction you are What a blessed figment of my imagining You're too good to be true But baby I could be so damn good to you I'm tryna be the one you manifested even when your faith had vanished The shorty that would short her last to give you an advantage And you'd do the same, passion never abandoned We'd manage to make a mountain out the molehill we were granted Black queer radical, nothing short of magical, joy like sabbatical Boy you make the rational factual seem frivolous, girl you on some different shit And gotdamnit I'm into it To keep it funky, I know I could make you love me But trust me, I've got some work to do to make me worth the cuffing Spirit told me fall back, it'll fall in place And I'm turning 25 is that too old for the chase? If we cutting to it, I'll be in the cutting room Tucking keys with love to make a masterpiece or two I can't imagine what you feel like yet Like fiction turned fact at the moment we met was gone What a lovely fiction you are What a blessed figment of my imagining You're too good to be true But baby I could be so damn good to you All in my head, all in my heart, all in my soul All about you, all about you, all about you All about you real soon All about me right now I'm tryna fix these faults I'm tryna heal these wounds I'm tryna live this truth All in my head All in my heart All in my soul All in on you All in on you All in on you All about you real soon All about me right now I'm tryna fix these faults I'm tryna heal these wounds I'm tryna live this truth All in my head All in my heart All in my soul All in on you All in on you All in on you All about you real soon All about me right now I'm tryna fix these faults I'm tryna heal these wounds I'm tryna live this truth I'm tryna live this truth I'm tryna live this truth I'm tryna live this truth I'm tryna live this truth Why you calling me? Oper the door!