Misfit

They ask me how you cope with depression What a question Self-deprecation Cause making fun helps get me through days faster A fine distraction Although I do get growing pains I'm on my knees Seems like I need to see a doctor to fix things My father said Rearrange have placement find order But that ain't me? In my head chaos reins over order Might be a mess but I'm not pretending I'm just in need of mending Meditating on what true happiness is? It's a fleeting feeling You catch it It disappears Wish it worked the same way with my fears Still drowning underneath Holes leaking I know that shit freaky People still come to see me cause they feel the shit within me seeping Why can't my folks just see this shit is me Why can't my attitude come across clearly And why can't I post up how I'm feeling Sometime this shit affects me Why can't I feel free have room to just breathe Why can't I feel free to have (to have) Why can't I feel free have room to just breathe Why can't I feel free have (to have) I'm a misfit baby I can't change just yet Let me be Let me find myself I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit baby A constant need for satisfaction A fixation it devours you Why keep myself tied down When I could be free Spirited away with the ghosts of my past whispering down my neck Will I ever be good enough Guess not So maybe there are many outcomes and possibilities If not positive get caught in negativity I'm stripped away of an identity I created now hated by those around me Relatives ain't relative No presents for my birthday No presents from pretenders Who never cared Who never spared a moment of time Why spend a moment of mind Seems like commitment to something that was never fine Seems like commitment to something that was never mine Seems like commitment to something that was never fine That was never mine to begin with I'm a misfit baby I can't change just yet Let me be Let me find myself I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit baby I can't change just yet Let me be Let me find myself I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit baby I messed up again Spending too much money on friends To keep em close Givin' them reason to stick around Yeah I know I shouldn't be proud But haven't you been faced with a choice to be left alone Or to be kept with friendly faces who embrace you? In a small room I'm fucking lonely Keep me on my own and the voices started talking Like in my head some messed up things are said like Like shit I'm a misfit Nobody likes me cause I'm different Like shit I'm a misfit Nobody likes me 'cause I'm different 'Cause I'm motherfucking different I'm a misfit baby I can't change just yet Let me be Let me find myself I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit baby I can't change just yet Let me be Let me find myself I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit baby (I'm a) I'm a misfit (I'm a) I'm a misfit Nobody likes me 'cause I'm different I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit I'm a misfit baby