Wrong Place, Wrong Time

Uh, yeah Know it's It's raining outside It's rainy shit, you know Average shit, it's just like Sometimes I just Don't know You know, like Average team shit, like Uh, uh, like Sometimes I wanna off myself I just wanna call it quits and slit the wrists See how bad it bleeds, do it just for kicks Leave my family with no other option but just to reminisce Intrusive thoughts are telling me "Fuck it," but I think I'd be pissed Like See my future drowning in chrome Don't wanna go outside, I'd rather stay home Thoughts invade my mind while I'm sad all alone I try it 'til I see the girl that's on the back of my phone Nowadays, I find it hard to cope with losses in my life I need my homies more than ever now, they know I'm not alright My girl got too much on her plate for me to bring this to her sight It's just how I operate, I don't like ruining people's nights But nights get cold, and days get longer Hours turned to seconds and my thoughts feel like bothers Can never talk to my mom about feelings, forget my father It kills me to be so closed off, it makes life harder My girls like three seconds away from leaving me Because I keep eating away at her heart When it just wants to be peacefully Miscommunication, that can be avoided so easily I'm supposed to be enjoying peace, but it's just war with me I'm kinda glad life doesn't come with an extended warranty 'Cause if I had to do this shit again, I'd return the receipt I been trying to warn motherfuckers that something's wrong with me But when they hear this, they'll just see it as another song for me Now it's got me thinking like "Is it worth it? Is this the life I wanna live? Will this work? Shit" I put a big smile on, even when I'm hurting My joyful life deteriorates the minute I close the curtain Overthinking to myself like "Will I stay or will I go? Will I die or will I grow?" In all honesty, I don't fucking know and so be it I can give a flying fuck if I'm alive, or I'm not, but Sometimes I wanna off myself I just wanna call it quits and slit the wrists See how bad it bleeds, do it just for kicks Leave my family with no other option but just to reminisce Intrusive thoughts are telling me "Fuck it," but I think I'd be pissed Like See my future drowning in chrome Don't wanna go outside, I'd rather stay home Thoughts invade my mind while I'm sad all alone I try it 'til I see the girl that's on the back of my phone (uh) Months have passed, I'm fine now No more relapsing on my mother's lap now I relax and laugh when I look back Speaking of back, my phone case is empty now I can breathe again, my mind drifts on an empty cloud Across the country doing what I love, it can't get better In Liam's room making magical tunes in my golf sweater This was my suicide letter Now this my redemption song This was a cry out for help But now it's just proof I was strong No more just dragging along The people love my new songs My career starting to carry, the growth I've seen is amazing The vision starting to get scary Finally feel there's a purpose No more feelings of being worthless Just glad I didn't fall through in January That's why I don't wanna off myself I don't wanna call it quits and slit the wrists To see how bad it bleeds, and do it just for kicks Can't leave my family with no other option to reminisce 'Cause if I'm so selfish to end it, my momma gon' lose her kid Like My future now is bright I'm at home Always active outside, I'm never cooped up alone Dreams of living rich with whips all made of chrome Wake up in the morning happy as shit to look at my phone Damn!