Armed to the Teeth

Feeling all kinds of sorry For myself and those around me Every time they go to fix it Something else is breaking The longer that you stare the uglier it gets So I stay cynical and safe inside my head And I'll keep armed to the closed mouth grin To keep them out and keep it in Finds a way under my skin To settle in like oxygen Takes over my nerve supply And paralyze the words that I Get sent into flight or fight And panic mode and I don't know why I don't want to be this way I don't want to be at all some days And I don't want to be alone I just can't explain myself to anyone I feel almost everything I'm in love with the world And it don't love me My hearts on fire And everything between I'm in love with the world And it's killing me When I die, I would like to be Reincarnated in a symphony Cos I don't want to feel anything I don't want a body I can't stand to breathe And I can't leave without it following So I keep my guard up and armed to the teeth I don't know where I'm supposed to go But I gotta get my shit together And leave right now