The Hills (feat. Nahli)

And these self portraits It's got nothing to do with how I look And most of the images I've taken the world will never see But it's become a meditative practice To aid in that self-reflection Look The boy wonder grew up wondering if he was ever worth it I'm staring at the shadows of my hits and feeling Burfict Laughing turned to tearing up, my fears are surely lurking Put myself to work when half a perc just wasn't working Past the first and I'm a deviant again I'm paid and flirting Just chatting at the bar to get a drink I prolly shouldn't sip Shoulda, coulda dipped but I ain't quitting till I'm to the brim Void ain't finna get a little closed if I ain't filling it But really I ain't feeling this Haven't for a minute Truly petrified of dealing with Scrutiny and similarities I could be hearing I just drank myself to sleep I'm like my father Tryna flex, think of what's next and never me Never looking for apologies, pardons, or petty parlays I'mma find a vision to finish and end it my way Though, I see my future closing fast as these chapters I last read Pray I don't end up in past tense Yeah I'm just tryna build something for you Just tryna get my money right And I wish that I could feel something for you But I just wanna make it through the night If only I could take it back I'm tired of fighting I'm tired of feeling angry All the time I done spent in my head Wishing things were different All of the worries I had If only I could take it back Where do our spirits go for guidance Where would a solemn soul go to find reminders Of what used to be Childhood confusion turned to masterpiece I'm speaking fractured praying my sentence fragments can catch a beat They call me talented, I still tend to disagree Maybe 'cause I know it's true, or maybe I'm in disbelief 'Cause teachers always told me to apply myself Find a voice Now I'm spitting writtens fighting demons like I have a choice I'm paranoid Petrified of moving forwards Towards a life that's bare and void Lord been sending tests and boy Your soldier's sword It's fairly worn It's falling off the bone If I live to see my prime I'll prolly share that joy alone Chasing thrones and skipping solitude I'm trying Fairly certain I'm gon shine with all these lights around me blinding And these heights we all been climbing For the Bean that's for the Thrill For my team, exhibit will 'Fore you see me in my coffin Put your threes up to The hills I'm just tryna build something for you I'm just tryna get my money right And I wish that I could feel something for you But I just wanna make it through the night If only I can take it back I'm tired of fighting I'm tired of feeling angry All the time I done spent in my head Wishing things were different All of the worries I had, yeah If only I could take it back Oh, take Only I can take it back I think for better or worse We conspire with mirrors to keep ourselves blinded From who we really are