everything

(Well, the first time was cool, I thought maybe-) I'm old enough to feel old But young enough to die alone And that's a scary thought to have When you don't want to die at all And I wanted everything I have Take a look to the past I have wanted so much Just to find it doesn't last It's just more than a habit If you see it, you can grab it But you know it when it hurts It's my attempt to find the words It's not a hymn, it's not a song That you grew up singing in church This one's a little bit louder And it's a little bit worse It's all, it's not, it's all, it's nothing It's something harder to find The thought of biting in a bullet Shot out of sight, and out of mind It's not just anything Because it's love, it's sex, it's life, it's death That lie you told under your breath The last drag of a cigarette It's everything, it's all it is It's all it is It's not a hymn, it's not a song That you grew up singing in church This one's a little bit louder And it's a little bit worse It's all, it's not, it's all, it's nothing It's something harder to find The thought of biting in a bullet Shot out of sight, and out of mind It's not just anything Because it's love and sex, it's life, it's death That lie you told under your breath The last drag of a cigarette It's everything, it's all it is It's god in drag, it's time has passed The call you got about your dad The softest touch, a taxi cab It's everything, it's all it is (I'm old enough to feel old But young enough to die alone And that's a scary thought to have When you don't wanna die at all And I wanted everything I have Take a look to the past I had wanted so much Just to find it doesn't last)