I'll Never Be Happy Again

I used to say I'd never be unhappy I thought that that was something I could do I said, I won't let my twenties start to trap me Other people must grow old Their jokes get jaded, hearts get cold But I can keep on being twenty-two Now I read my lyrics and feel foolish I've got room for everything inside So when you say, "I don't think I can do this I've exercised and said my prayers But still the pain's too much to bear And this time it's not gonna be alright" When you say "I'll never be happy again I'll never be happy again Where is my violin I'll never be happy again" We had a trampoline in our front garden One night I fell and bled out in the dark See every story's only what you sharpen What went wrong we were kids I choose what the story is I choose what to carry in my heart You say "don't you dare mess with my emotions Your toxic positivity's a bore "Don't show me the mountains or the oceans Hit the bricks, leave me alone, I've got nature on my phone I would rather sink into the floor" "And never be happy again I'll never be happy again Where is my violin I'll never be happy again" When I'm lost from the light When I cannot find a reason To get out of bed To make some tea Don't give up the fight Every feeling has a season I'm not alright, but I'm gonna be You don't have to ever feel all better Certain songs may never fade away But let my love be your favorite sweater It took a year to finally know Pain will come and pain will go But stick around and it'll be okay And you will be happy again You will be happy again I cannot tell you when But you will be happy You will happy again One two three four