Self Sabotage

Every time I go looking for myself I always seem to find somebody else And even though my eyes are wide open I'm still blind to reality Spent days losing faith in my reflection Counting the ways I dwell on imperfections Close me off from the world outside Hopelessly alone Imprisoned in this body I hate I can't find an escape Self-sabotage A prison I'm forced to gaze upon Deceived into believing I'm not who I really am on the outside Shattered images are cursing me Tattered visions erase what's meant to be Held captive inside of this crooked shell Yet no one in my life can even tell Find me disassociating from my body Shed my skin and break away Find me disassociating from my body Shed my skin and break away Spent days losing faith in my reflection Counting the ways I dwell on imperfections Close me off from the world outside Hopelessly alone Imprisoned in this body I hate I can't find an escape Self-sabotage A prison I'm forced to gaze upon Deceived into believing I'm not who I really am on the outside Every time I go looking for myself I always seem to find somebody else And even though my eyes are wide open I'm still blind to reality