I Lie

I guess you caught me at a bad time I was almost out of sight and now you just remind me of all the things that I don't have Avoiding your gaze I repeat your questions to find the answers My hair is falling, covering my eyes There is a distance in our words a gap that hurts My head is spinning, I feel like another as I try But I lie I lie I lie to you I don't need you to worry Don't want to hear your words of wisdom Ashamed but I envy you too much You have found what you wanted but I found a crack inside my heart You see right through me Please let me be Let me lie I lie to you I lie Bite my lips to keep from crying as I ask about your day Going through the motions saying I'm ok I'm defensive, filled with anger Filled with what I'm keeping inside although I know you only want the best for me I lie I lie to you I hope tomorrow might feel like a hundred years later