To Learn

What can I say? I'm learning to lie But I'm living to learn What to lie about I'm losing again From holding too tight But I'm living to lose What I can do without I've played a few games Where no score could be fitting But I'm learning when winning Is just not worth the sport And I've been so ashamed That I've run like the wind But I'm learning about giving up And sparing the horse (Hmm, hmm) (Hmm, mm) When I've been cruel I've taken up self hatred Procrastinating pains of finally seeing myself But when I looked on the truth And it bloomed for all its patience There was ugliness and shame But there was something else What can I say? I'm learning to die But I'm living to learn