The Ascent

I hate this monster inside me (inside me!) My body's breaking down! I'm alone and I can't breathe! You wouldn't understand, no chance! 'Cause I feel so fucking dead! Take the last drink, the bottle's gone Washed down my throat, I'm full, but empty Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend, and it's killing me I'm not losing this fight, oh wait, I guess I just lost it last night Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend, and it's killing me Frail boy with a shallow mind I'm not quite sure that I'm the type of guy You should be hanging around I tend to let people down. This is the last time getting high! Promises sound just like last night! I don't know anything anymore! Help me regain control! I've been dependent for so long! I need to leave! I've been dependent for so long! I need to live (again!) Take the last drink, the bottle's gone Washed down my throat, I'm full, but empty Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend, and it's killing me I'm not losing this fight, oh wait, I guess I just lost it last night Guess I'm not the man that I wanna be The bar's my only friend and it's killing me I'm drinking whisky like water 'Cause water does nothing for me I'm full of pain, I need it more I'm as empty as the whisky bottle on my floor. This is the end! I don't need this anymore! Taking control! Is finding strength to let it go! This is the end! I don't need this anymore! Taking control Is finding strength to let it go! I'm drinking whisky like water 'Cause water does nothing for me.