I finally found that jacket
That "Denims are a winter coat" my aunt bought me years ago
I reach into the pockets
And found a crumpled airplane ticket, 2020, Chicago
I used to fly so often
I got high off red eye flights and singing 2000's
Now I work in an office
I rack my mind for reasons why I'm better off without it
I guess I'm fine, life is nice
I'm lucky 'cause I actually really like my nine to five
But I can't lie, deep inside
I'm missing the adrenaline and sleepless nights
And I get this vision that I'm 35
Settled down in the suburbs, someone's wife
I have a picture-perfect, upper middle-class life
And I'm comfortably distracted most of the time
But then I'll see a picture from when I was 19
And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be
I was living in a world of endless possibility
I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free
Isn't this what I wanted?
A sense of stability and change in my pocket
But now that I finally have it
I'm finding that the grass ain't as green as they promised
I guess I'm fine, life is nice
I'm lucky 'cause I actually really like my nine to five
But I can't lie, deep inside
I'm missing the adrenaline and sleepless nights
And I get this vision that I'm 35
Settled down in the suburbs, someone's wife
I have a picture-perfect, upper middle-class life
And I'm comfortably distracted most of the time
But then I'll see a picture from when I was 19
And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be
I was living in a world of endless possibility
I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free, ohh
I, pray this curse won't last forever
I, feel so somber in discomfort
I'll see a picture from when I was 19 (when I was 19)
And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be (used to be)
I was living in a world of endless possibility
I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free
